A movie many years ago sleep with enemies She told the horrifying story of a woman who was emotionally, physically and verbally abused by her husband. Moviegoers resonated with this theme that we can sometimes associate with people who pretend to be safe when in fact they seek to destroy us rather than protect us. For many of us, it is not the actual physical human being who sleeps with the enemy, but rather our own words, actions, attitudes, and destructive behaviors that separate us from God’s love or refuse us to accept God’s love. I think it’s a pattern of behavior.
Unresolved disappointment is the seed of a bitter harvest. They are rooted in the attitude that I have a right to be angry with God because they didn’t give me what I wanted. “Baby daddy left me.” “I didn’t get the job I wanted.” “I prayed, but my mother still died.” but what I prayed for still happened.” is just one example. It’s perfectly okay to feel disappointed, but it’s important not to get caught up in your right to be disappointed. After a season of unanswered prayers, it is all too easy for us to make such attitudes our company. God wants us to bring our disappointments to Him. But some of us bring with us an arrogance that comes from the agony of unanswered prayers. I believe it gives us the right to be angry and distance ourselves from God.
I understand your anger at God because my prayers were not heard. I even remember praying and telling God that I didn’t need to pray because it didn’t lead to anything. I remember thinking, what’s the point of praying when you still don’t get what you want? Instead of wasting time in prayer and fasting, I could have spent my time watching TV and eating whatever I wanted.
Immediately after my rant, I read a devotional addressing my complaints and immediately wept tears of repentance. Prayer isn’t about getting answers we like, it’s about building a stronger relationship with God. I felt like I had insulted God because I was selfishly focused on getting things rather than building a relationship with Him. I felt that I had lost a lot as a result of my unanswered prayers, but now I had to admit that I had a much closer relationship with God.
Disappointment from unanswered prayers is the enemy because it deceives you into thinking that God is not listening and does not love you. John 10:10 says, “Thieves come only to steal, to kill, or to destroy. I came so that they might have life and have it more abundantly.” Like any loving father, God wants us to speak to Him in prayer.
If you want to deepen your intimacy with God, you must increase your communication with Him. In other words, pray. When you start spending more time with God in prayer, it doesn’t matter if you get what you want. The point is that we now have a stronger relationship with God.